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Not about You but Me
Not about You but Me
Not about You but Me
Sapna Chandrakar
BBA IIIrd semester
Amazing things happened,
and Amazing things I discovered,
Amazing to me, cause,
it was not about you but about me.

To make you understand And I distanced myself from my family.
I Will take you through And something which became my daily routine,
All the ascents and descents, Was not trying, but crying.
of this lockdown coaster.

I was struggling hard to
It was not what I was praying for but come out of that phase telling myself that
about making me understand what I my problems are not the real ones
needed to pray for. But the ones that other people face.
Not about what should I do
But about why it should be done. But nothing helped

And I decided to go with the flow
When you think you are right And, Acceptance became my strength. Now,
on the path, you feel is an ascent, I knew what I was going through,
it cheers you up. But the only thought in my mind was,
And sooner your myth bursts Not to fall apart, but to bounce back.
And then what you face is,
not fantasy but reality. If this time was not given to me,
I could never understand,
And the reality is not your self-esteem, My level of tolerance,
Which goes away once you stop believing in it. My level of patience
At one point in time even my reality, The inner strength which I have.
Got a chance to hit me hard. My ability to be there for others, And my family.
Not when I was cheerful, but when I was low.
And then the descent phase started
It was not my lack of interest, The time which was given to me
But my lack of motivation, And the time I took to fall
That I didn't have that strength or courage to And the time I took to get up
follow the path which I had to. I value it, respect it,
And appreciate it,
When I was busy, I used to think, because it was Not about you but for me.
'Wish I had some free time.
I think my angel took it too seriously.
But I failed to do my part, As I could not use it,
But only waste it.

All were locked in their houses,
And I was locked in my thoughts.
All were practicing social distancing,

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